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2005
Born in Australia on October 25, 2005.
 
Dec 2005
We see his first real smiles :-)
 
21st December 2007, approx 6pm
Found Ryan in the shallow end of the pool, face down.  Began CPR, ambulance called. 
 
21st December, 2007 approx 6:20pm
Paramedics are able to revive Ryan.  He is admitted to Intensive Care.  I stay up at the hospital that night.  It was the longest night of my life.  I would do anything to have that night again.  I was stuck in denial, expecting Ryan to open his eyes and say "mummy" at any moment.  I wish I had known it would be my last night with him so I could hold him and talk to him more than I did.  During the night, he had two seizures but each time I was not at his side.  It was like he was trying to protect me from seeing him like that.  At one stage I broke down crying and he immediately opened his eyes and began gagging on the breathing tube.  "He can hear his mum," the nurses said to me.  He fought so hard all night.
 
22nd December 2007
At about 6am I could tell that Ryan was slipping away from me.  The machines were beeping every couple of minutes and nurses and doctors were hovering.  I knew the time was near.  Craig turned up about 6:30am and suggested I go and try and rest.  I couldn't bear to see Ryan crashing and knowing I could do nothing to help him so I kissed him goodbye, told him I loved him and left.  I had only been home 5 minutes when the hospital called me back.  I knew what that meant.  I remember turning to mum and saying "I've lost my baby".  As soon as I saw you I knew you were gone.  Your body was limp and the faces of the staff solemn.  The doctors informed us that Ryan's outlook was poor.  That his reflexes were absent and his pupils nonreactive. They wanted to do one final scan to test for brain activity but we were told to prepare ourselves.  At about 2pm the results were in and we were told Ryan was brain dead.  The silence that followed was deafening.  I couldn't cry, I couldn't scream, I couldn't do anything.  We were than asked about organ donation.  We didn't hesitate for a moment.  Ryan would have wanted to help others and it comforted us somewhat to know that Ryan could save the lives of others and prevent this unbearable pain for someone else.
 
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